random post...

I know, 2 posts in ONE day! I'm going CRAZY with this blogging stuff! :D

Well, as I was sitting here reading some blogs, happy ones, sad ones, cooking and baking ones. I was thinking about my life. Today I met with my "financial adviser." I had to decide what I am going to do with the money my agency puts in for my retirement, as well as some other financial things I have going on. It is interesting to hear from random people, that you really don't know very well, and that sort of "work" for you, to let you know that what you are currently doing in your life is good and that you are on the right track. Being 34, (EEK!) at times I think that I should have a house, better car, more important job, be finished with school or a different something... It's not like I am not happy with my life, because I am. I am content. I have a wonderful apartment, with some of the cheapest rent in Juneau, a FANTASTIC job, a car that runs (even though in the winter I can only open certain doors...,), my life is moving forward. I go to school part time, because I work full time. I don't have a job that is easy. It is a STRESSFUL job. You would think listening to people talk about their problems, and addictions would be easy, but it's not. It's stressful. Some days after work, I just want to curl in a ball and stare at a wall. (don't worry, I don't. I watch mind numbing T.V.. instead..., I'm getting better, I'm throwing going for walks in the mix too.) I don't particularly want to go to school to "further" my education goals. But, I do. One day, I will be finished with my bachelors and I will proudly drag myself across that stage, from exhaustion, with the thought of a masters on my mind (which of course, I have chosen a career path where I need a masters.) Back to Randy, my financial adviser. He told me that going to school and being where I am and what I am doing is a good thing, especially financially. I am in a good place. That made me feel good to know. My life's journey is different from others'. That's okay, and I am good with it. Just 'cause I am an "adult" doesn't mean I have to have ALL the answers. I tell that to the kids every day. Especially the seniors that are FREAKING all the way out about their future. I should take my own advice. But for now, I'll hold tight to what Randy said. Thanks Randy.